Spirit: Who I used to be
As some of you may know if you follow me on twitter, I recently started a vegetable garden! (jumps for joy) I have always wanted to have a garden; even as a child I would fantasize planting vegetables and growing things. The garden really was a little dream come true. This was something I had talked about starting for years and to see it actually come to fruition was a small victory.
However, in order for me to plant anything it was hard work. I had a small manual plow to turn the dirt and dig up the millions of stubborn weeds in the ground. At one point there were so many weeds and thick weed roots that I thought there was a tree stump there. I kept on digging for hours until I finally got usable soil.
While I was digging, pulling and sweating I started to think about the irony of it all. Here I was busting my hump to make this soil useable while God has been doing the same thing to me for years. I used to be only a glimpse of the person who you see today. The physical transformation is very clear but on the inside I was very different. I was really selfish, impatient, worrisome, prideful and augmentative. Don’t get me wrong I am not perfect now, but those attributes ruled my life. I was always overreacting, experiencing terrible mood swings or making hasty decisions that turned out bad.
There was much plowing of my life soil that needed to be done. As I move from level to level and become wiser daily all the turmoil and hard times was necessary for me to be who I am today. One of my biggest problems was I thought I was always right; this hinders humility. However, learning to take the judgmental eyes off everyone else and put them on me has helped. Changing is a process. I don’t think I have arrived but I know that my soil is closer to being usable. The daily difficulties, the lessons and the things that I have to push through are easier because they are preparing my soil for a wonderful harvest.
I don’t look forward to difficult times but I appreciate them because they are moving me closer to my goals.
How has God changed you? Have you changed from who you used to be? Share your thoughts and comments!
Paparoxi | tagged changing your life, healthy living 
Reader Comments (4)
I'm not in the beginning and not necessarily in the end BUT I can already see changes of myself. God told me to distance myself from people who were bringing me down ONLY to bring people who support me. I've no longer trying to fit in and people are starting to see the real me. I'm happier than I've ever been. But Right now, I'm struggling not only to push through my health journey, but my journey of pursuing my dreams. What's crazy is that pursuing my dreams is the hardest journey. The people who are close to me, who I thought support me, DON'T. But I've been reading The Alchemist and that has also pushed me to pursue my Personal Legend.
I have a long way to go on both journeys, but I'm so happy to be on both of them. :)
Its amazing to see the transformation over time. Keep pushing toward your dreams, the moment your dream was conceived there was a path laid for you to get there! Know that God is preparing you for your purpose.
Awesome post, and cute picture! I'm working on being a better person each day and living in God's will for my life.
Yes, This is how i know the universe is moving. My message for today was as such: "When folks say that "you've changed", genuinely Thank them. Your growth is showing! Never allow their vibrational tones of how they uttered "You've Changed" convince you that growth is negative. Change is constant"
Change? Yes i have and i am thanking God that it's happening for others to see. If i was to see change i had to BE the change. I can so relate to your "vegetable garden" experience. I was sipping a cup of fresh red clover tea that i purchased from the herb store yesterday. As i sat there sipping, it hit me like a lightening bolt - WOW, i have (1) educated myself on the health benefits of this tea (2) conditioned and trained myself to enjoy this acquired tasted without any artificial sweeteners. I reflected back when i was only just drinking chamoile tea and couldn't even get half way through.
Once again, another great post. ~ Peace